Thaaaaaaaaanks God the website is back o

It's definitely between yellow and yellow-orange.
But I seriously want the yellow.

I was browsing through the paint company's shade card - and they have like beige as a combination colour. Doesn't look too bad!!!

I honestly want my entire room yellow, but I know the painter won't let me cause it'll look too bright. Egh!

Also, I was looking for vintage Russian posters. I found some really cool ones. I also found this one poster that was used as a prop on Friends - about a Kangaroo Boxer. Definitely gonna get that one printed and framed. Then I'll see which other poster to print out.

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I have to write a letter to my ex about a certain friend I lost. Wondering how he'll take it. I'm assuming it'll be like a selfish kind of reaction.

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Giving myself 3 days to clear my room of all the unnecessary junk - including the desktop, old clothes, old cosmetics, old notes etc
Everything needs to be ORGANIZED like crazy!!! And I have like 2 weeks left to get everything in place. Not enough time.

^uf! Good luck in sorting your things! I know how exhausting this can be >.<

It's so hot here, nothing to do, I can't even read books, my mind is constantly somewhere else >.<

Do you guys ever get that feeling like you just want to cut yourself from the world for a while?
I have this really strong urge to just go into hiding for a few months. So sick of the people in my life.
Especially 2 people from my college group of friends. Like I literally hate them. Theyve screwed everything up for me.

I think that everyone feels like that once in a while

I has done it in past ( getting rid of everything and everyone )
If I will do it in future , I will not do it as radically as in past , but instead I will go to like traveling or something

It may clear the air , or it may be total , epic , stellar , full catastrophic failure ( but if you enjoy your time being away , it it actually tends to be worth it anyways )

yes, I feel like that right now ((

Yeah I've let go of so many people in the last 2 months.
1 of them I totally regret. And like I seriously miss him SO MUCH! Like that one friend you have to talk about anything to... and now there's no one and I feel so empty on the inside!

It just sucks cause I just didn't know what I wanted. Ugh!

But I've had two months to think this through and now I'm pretty sure who I want in my life and who I want out!

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Have SO much left to clean out of my room. There are so many old notes - Need to just chuck em all out. Egh.

^I am sure he would understand , if you would ask him to come back (unless he has moved to other country , but there is always this magnificent new thing called interweb )

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I really have burned so many bridges and churches behind , sometimes it is worth it , sometimes don't .


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I am doing walls now to my bedroom/MINI studio ( they will be made of wood , that will be treated to be kinda blackish / silver-ish / something ) , please guys , give me some crazy ideas for the finish of the floor and ceiling ...

Yay Julia's website is back online. Lets hope it stays online too.

Man of Sin wrote:^I am sure he would understand , if you would ask him to come back (unless he has moved to other country , but there is always this magnificent new thing called interweb )

He'll be moving to the States for the next 2 years to study.
And I am running out of time. We used to message more over the internet than through texts or meeting up. But living in the same city is so different from living in different countries!